Topsy-Turvy: A state of utter confusion, disarray, disorder, chaos.
This expression keeps going around and around in my head; – non-stop! Topsy-turvy, topsy-turvy, topsy-turvy etc, etc, etc,——ad infinitum!
I haven’t written a blog in a very long time. I have been wanting to but just couldn’t.
Not that I didn’t have a lot to say, in fact, I had too much to say. That was my problem. I just couldn’t’ put it all down – the paper would have caught fire!
I needed to wait until I could write with some measure of control of my feelings.
Is “topsy-turvy” a measure of control? At least I have an expression of where I am now; what I feel now — topsy-turvy!!!!!
So how does one manage in the world that feels like this? Go about one’s life, work, family, feeling disconnected, unsteady, unsettled?
I find myself reaching far back to times in my life of deep personal tragedy; times when everything seemed to be going wrong and ask myself , what did I do then?
I remember reaching deep down; inside, seeking and searching for a warm, safe place; and finding it, feeling so grateful that it was there waiting for me.
There it was when I needed it; protected, giving me time to come to terms with a new reality.
I feel that is where we are now – in the midst of a country-wide, world-wide period of major transition and I want to be ready to adapt, accommodate.
Topsy-turvy is temporary; the challenge is how to return to balance.
Happy New Year, everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
From the Heart 